married with dog

being married oddly changes the way i look at the world. i honestly expected very little difference. and on the outside, not much has changed.

inside, though. inside. i feel like death is a lot more real. i fear losing kristen. i fear leaving her behind. these are new fears. or maybe, not new, but with the ring on my finger they bubbled to the surface. this isn't a bad thing. it adds a whole new perspective to life, and it changes me. it changes what matters. i imagine having a kid probably amps it up even more.

i think for the first time in my life i'm truly aware that there is an end to it. not something to run from. just not something to forget.

with this change came an urgency to pick up cameras again. we are making shorts on the weekends starring ourselves. just so we can shoot and edit. and i have the itche to carry my SLR around with me everywhere.

and with that, comes this new batch. partially taken before married life and partly after. it's a pretty fitting transitional addition. i'm quite fond of some of these.

the funny thing is, hawaii is a terribly photogenic place. i mean, just about anywhere you go, there's a good shot. and yet, it doesn't do much for me. aesthetically, i can appreciate it, but it doesn't stoke that fire in me. but i'll keep working.

hope you can enjoy some of these. and hopefully more will be coming soon.